Not meant to be?

Its some time that I didn't post about how I'm feeling. There are far to many heartaches that i'm having now, sigh.
It sucks,

Boy, I'm touched that you remember how we met and things. I guess, love its not about how it started, but how it ended? So, how we meet isn't really important. & yes, I dont write stories out of random, its impossible to write a story w/o inspiration. You should know it, and yes. It describes my feelings. You never fails to make me smile, but also, cry. You  know how much it hurts being jealous over your plurk&tweet? I had enough.

Many of my friends knew that you broke up w your previous girlfriend just to be with me, some still warned me to not be w you, they're afraid that i'll get hurt, like how you hurt your previous girlfriend. But I still chose to trust you, love is about trusting. You never fails to hurt me w your words, and felt w disappointment. While typing, tears are flowing. I'm afraid, i'm really afraid. Sister told me : ' If you knew there would  be an end, why would you want to start it? And you're sure that you'll get hurt by another relationship. ' Yes, that's so true. What if we're not meant to be? Sisterheart said, there might be a possible that you patch w your previous girlfriend, but I want to trust you, so I chose to ignore it. You're no longer the Evan I knew, you seems to change so much. I seriously hope you'll change to th one, that I first know, and love - deeply. That's all, [: