Another story from Ruiyi'Jieh.

Friend and lover betrayal
“How could you? How could you betray me!” I shouted as I tried to control the tears that were threatening to fall. “Sica, you are really naïve huh? Why would I want to be your friend anyway? Not like you are that popular or fun.” She smirked, holding on to the guy beside her, cuddling closer. It hurts… I looked at the couple in front of me. The girl whom I had always trusted relying her on anything and the guy whom I had always loved. Those trust and love which I held in them, disappeared as I let the first tear of mine dropped…
Locking the door behind me, I turned to see Tiffany, my best friend who was with me for two years waiting for me at the walkway. “Sica! Quick, we are going to be late soon!” My name is Jessica, but Tiffany loved to call me Sica as my nickname while I call her Tiff. We would always walk to school together in the morning. Once we reached the school hall, the first person I saw was Jay. I ran into his arms and hugged him tightly, whispering “I miss you…” to him. He hugged me back but it seems like a awkward hug till Tiffany came behind me and says “don’t be that loving in front of me, it’s too sweet.” I laughed and broke off the hug as she dragged the word sweet. Kissing Jay on the cheek, telling him that we will meet at recess, I walked to the next class with Tiffany.
After those boring lessons, it was finally recess time. As I entered the canteen with Tiffany, my eyes immediately searched for Jay. I found him at the side of the canteen so I pulled Tiffany along with me. We sat together at the table and ate. A few friends of ours cracked jokes and made us laughed. It was nice; I love the feeling of having your loved ones and friends together with you. A very warm feeling which I could not describe it… As I have to see my history teacher later, I left the canteen early but not forgetting to give Jay a kiss on the cheek as he just nodded at me.
Later then, I was in the class waiting for Tiffany to come. We had most of our lessons together. She came in with a smug smile. I wonder why… “Tiff, why do you look so happy? Anything happen?” “It’s nothing! Just feeling in a good mood.” She smiled at me, which I somehow find it creepy. I shrugged it off, not knowing what comes after me later… After school, I want to the music room to find Jay as he sends me a message that he needed to talk to me. I have a bad feeling about it, but it could not be what I think is it? As I entered the room, I saw his back facing me. I ran up and hugged his waist from behind, but he took my hand off. I looked at him with confusion. “We are over.” These three words got me into shock. “Why? What happen? What did I do wrong?” I bombarded him with questions with anxiety filling me up.
“I don’t have the same feelings anymore.” After hearing this one sentence, I took a step back looking at him in disbelief. We were still fine this morning, what had gone into us? I tried to recall the things happening in the morning. The awkward hugging in the morning and the nodding of head in the canteen, it made me realized that things had not been the same since this morning. I shook my head to erase those thoughts from my head. “No! I don’t believe you…” I said as tears were rolling down my cheek. “Are you that naïve? I said we’re over. We had nothing to do with each other anymore.” He brushed past my shoulder and walked away. I turned to see his back retreating from me, not bothering to give me one last look.
I kneeled down on the floor crying, feeling devastated. After crying my heart out, I felt much better. I walked out of school, just in time to see a girl holding hands with Jay. I could not see the girl very well, but she looks like someone I knew. My heart broke knowing he loved another girl instead of me, breaking up with me because of that girl. Little did I know…
I walked to Tiffany’s house, wanting to tell her what had happened and let her comfort me. Just when I walked up near her house, I saw Jay kissing her passionately. I walked up to them and pulled them apart. Both of them looked shocked as they saw me. “How could you? How could you betray me!” I shouted as I tried to control the tears that were threatening to fall. “Sica, you are really naïve huh? Why would I want to be your friend anyway? Not like you are that popular or fun.” She smirked, holding on to the guy beside her, cuddling closer. I glared at Jay, “is not that you have no feelings for me is it? You are going out with my best friend behind my back right!” I shouted, with accusation in my voice. He looked away instead of giving me an answer. “Fine… I would never ever want to see both of you again!” I shouted as I ran, not knowing where my feet will bring me. I just wanted to get out of this horrible world, horrible place.
Have you ever suffer from pain so much till you wish you had never been born? I knew I had. I did not know making a wrong decision could bring you so much pain and overwhelmed sadness. If I ever knew I had trusted the wrong person, loving the wrong guy could break hurt me so badly. I would never make that decision. It was just one simple mistake that broke my heart into pieces.

Written by : L.Ruiyi
26th March 2010